一个人
静静地
望着天空
看着星星
看着月亮
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给蚊子咬。。。（=.='''）
FAITH is the key to live your dream! ✞
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
快乐的泉源
我真在寻找快乐的泉源.
虽然我答应大家,我会快乐的.
可是,我始终找不到快乐的原因.
也许,我再次迷失了我的方向.
就好像当初,中学刚毕业,却无法如愿到音乐学校完成我的梦想的感觉.
所以,我才会过于把自己寄托在某些事情上.
就算有时苦苦的,总觉得为一个人付出,也是一件很美好的事情.
就因为这样,自己的生活被对方牵着走了.
因为原本的自己,也根本没有生活的目标.
就这样每天过着
快要21岁了
心智却还像个小孩
应该说
我希望我还是个小孩
无忧无虑的小孩
很容易满足的小孩
虽然我答应大家,我会快乐的.
可是,我始终找不到快乐的原因.
也许,我再次迷失了我的方向.
就好像当初,中学刚毕业,却无法如愿到音乐学校完成我的梦想的感觉.
所以,我才会过于把自己寄托在某些事情上.
就算有时苦苦的,总觉得为一个人付出,也是一件很美好的事情.
就因为这样,自己的生活被对方牵着走了.
因为原本的自己,也根本没有生活的目标.
就这样每天过着
快要21岁了
心智却还像个小孩
应该说
我希望我还是个小孩
无忧无虑的小孩
很容易满足的小孩
Jiayi's Life
Q.What crazy things have you ever done in your life?
A.Seriously, i cant think of any. I used to lead a peaceful life. Or should i say, PLAIN life?
I was thinking to did one last time, but i was not giving a chance to do so. I didn't have the guts to do so as well. And now i think that i m actually lucky that i don't have the chance to do so, else i will be regretting for my stupid action that i did now.
Q.What silly things have you ever done in your life?
A. Wow, that's a lot. its countless. And i don't even bother to remember what was those silly things that i've done. Its way too embarrassing to remember them. I used to be so naive and clumsy, of course there re toooooo much silly things that i CAN do. LOL
Q.What is the hardest things that you have to overcome in your life?
A. Ok. There re 3.
1st. Sense of direction
I can still lost my way in the neighbourhood that i ve lived for 10++ years.
I spend 1 month to remember the route to my class with MAP when i 1st enter my Uni.
2nd. Driving
Yea. I got my license. And of course I can drive. Manual car some more! I can change the gear very smoothly.
BUT
I can't do side parking, reverse parking,
i can't measure the distance between my car and car beside me,
i dunno how to overtake cars, i got a phobia to drive on highway,
last but not least , i can't remember the route to the destination!
yea, i know i am lame T_T
3rd Programming
The subject that i hate the most in my life!
I spent a miserable Uni life becuz of IT!
I will always end up with crying face when I need to do the assignment or prepare for the exam.
I will get really emo everytime when I face the codes.
I did try to work on it during my beta years. I thought nothing can beat me.
I carried the programming books everywhere.
But i only can master it theoretically, but not practically!
So, i decided to give up.
It was the reason that i hope to graduate asap from this university.
Screw you programming!
Q.What is the easiest thing in your life?
A.Sleep. Eat.
Yea. I used to sleep well and eat well.
I love to sleep and i love to eat.
Miraculously, Lazy bum having insomnia for the 1st time in her 20 years life!
yea, It happened once.
I swear there are nothing running in my brain that night!
Or maybe, i was thinking about SOMETHING unconsciously...
SOMETHING was too bad that give me a sleepless night...
I lost my appetite sometimes, when i was in really really bad mood.
But Sometime i will try to eat a lots of food to overcome my bad mood.
I know that was wrong. But it is better than i eat nothing right?
1.Insommia + Lost appetite = thin
2.Sleep Well + Eat a lot = fat
I will choose the 1st one! I rather to become a vampire than a fat ass :(
A.Seriously, i cant think of any. I used to lead a peaceful life. Or should i say, PLAIN life?
I was thinking to did one last time, but i was not giving a chance to do so. I didn't have the guts to do so as well. And now i think that i m actually lucky that i don't have the chance to do so, else i will be regretting for my stupid action that i did now.
Q.What silly things have you ever done in your life?
A. Wow, that's a lot. its countless. And i don't even bother to remember what was those silly things that i've done. Its way too embarrassing to remember them. I used to be so naive and clumsy, of course there re toooooo much silly things that i CAN do. LOL
Q.What is the hardest things that you have to overcome in your life?
A. Ok. There re 3.
1st. Sense of direction
I can still lost my way in the neighbourhood that i ve lived for 10++ years.
I spend 1 month to remember the route to my class with MAP when i 1st enter my Uni.
2nd. Driving
Yea. I got my license. And of course I can drive. Manual car some more! I can change the gear very smoothly.
BUT
I can't do side parking, reverse parking,
i can't measure the distance between my car and car beside me,
i dunno how to overtake cars, i got a phobia to drive on highway,
last but not least , i can't remember the route to the destination!
yea, i know i am lame T_T
3rd Programming
The subject that i hate the most in my life!
I spent a miserable Uni life becuz of IT!
I will always end up with crying face when I need to do the assignment or prepare for the exam.
I will get really emo everytime when I face the codes.
I did try to work on it during my beta years. I thought nothing can beat me.
I carried the programming books everywhere.
But i only can master it theoretically, but not practically!
So, i decided to give up.
It was the reason that i hope to graduate asap from this university.
Screw you programming!
Q.What is the easiest thing in your life?
A.Sleep. Eat.
Yea. I used to sleep well and eat well.
I love to sleep and i love to eat.
Miraculously, Lazy bum having insomnia for the 1st time in her 20 years life!
yea, It happened once.
I swear there are nothing running in my brain that night!
Or maybe, i was thinking about SOMETHING unconsciously...
SOMETHING was too bad that give me a sleepless night...
I lost my appetite sometimes, when i was in really really bad mood.
But Sometime i will try to eat a lots of food to overcome my bad mood.
I know that was wrong. But it is better than i eat nothing right?
1.Insommia + Lost appetite = thin
2.Sleep Well + Eat a lot = fat
I will choose the 1st one! I rather to become a vampire than a fat ass :(
Sunday, March 29, 2009
心情日记
为什么，有些人能那么会掩饰？
而我却让人家能一眼看穿我。
有时我也想把自己复杂的思绪藏起来。
可是我就是做不到。
把真实的情绪，真实的自己隐藏起来
让我觉得好累好烦
我也曾经努力地让自己不被别人看透
也想过伪装另一个自己来保护自己
终究还是不成功
以为我还是无法让自己带着面具做人
虽然那样会比较快乐，比较不容易受伤害
可是
我还是做不到
太差劲
至少
我现在要让自己看起来没有那么哀愁
若无其事地适应现在的生活
=================================================
我后悔了
还是后悔了
可是我没有第三个选择
放弃梦想 选择用逃避来忘记
是懦弱的表现
我还是懦弱
我害怕会让逐渐恢复的伤口再度崩开
虽然很不愿意
很不甘愿
可是我选择退出了
放弃了我的机会
我喜欢的东西
来治愈我那可悲的自尊
和心灵
=================================================
我突然想关闭这里
不想让太多人知道我的事情
我不想连唯一能抒发情绪的地方
也被人监视着
被人批评着
到头来
我还是无法不写出一些emo的文章
这就是我
我无法把自己改变得很开朗
就算 表面看起来很开朗
在内心深处
始终住着一个悲伤的自己
不是因为最近发生了什么事
而是就算得到幸福也会活在悲伤中的悲情女子
LOL
只有这样的自己
才能创造更多的作品不是吗？
虽然都是悲伤的作品
可是
我还满乐在其中的
呵呵
乐于让自己活在悲伤世界的自己
而我却让人家能一眼看穿我。
有时我也想把自己复杂的思绪藏起来。
可是我就是做不到。
把真实的情绪，真实的自己隐藏起来
让我觉得好累好烦
我也曾经努力地让自己不被别人看透
也想过伪装另一个自己来保护自己
终究还是不成功
以为我还是无法让自己带着面具做人
虽然那样会比较快乐，比较不容易受伤害
可是
我还是做不到
太差劲
至少
我现在要让自己看起来没有那么哀愁
若无其事地适应现在的生活
=================================================
我后悔了
还是后悔了
可是我没有第三个选择
放弃梦想 选择用逃避来忘记
是懦弱的表现
我还是懦弱
我害怕会让逐渐恢复的伤口再度崩开
虽然很不愿意
很不甘愿
可是我选择退出了
放弃了我的机会
我喜欢的东西
来治愈我那可悲的自尊
和心灵
=================================================
我突然想关闭这里
不想让太多人知道我的事情
我不想连唯一能抒发情绪的地方
也被人监视着
被人批评着
到头来
我还是无法不写出一些emo的文章
这就是我
我无法把自己改变得很开朗
就算 表面看起来很开朗
在内心深处
始终住着一个悲伤的自己
不是因为最近发生了什么事
而是就算得到幸福也会活在悲伤中的悲情女子
LOL
只有这样的自己
才能创造更多的作品不是吗？
虽然都是悲伤的作品
可是
我还满乐在其中的
呵呵
乐于让自己活在悲伤世界的自己
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Love at 1st sight
I immediately fall in love with the Juicy Couture Bags at first sight!
They re just ToooooOOOO Cute!
Well, before that i never know that they are branded since they looks so cute and young, totally different with those Guess or LV bags (which kinda Suitable for "Older" woman XD)
I ' m thinking to get a imitation ... but I heard some comments that said the imitation of JC is kinda yucky... Well, i think i ve to wait till i get my 1st salary to buy it, i wonder how long i need to wait? haih ...
The low quality imitation already cost more than RM 50, AA quality cost more than RM150, how do u think about the authentic one? LOL!
Tell me how could i resist these piano series bag/pencil case?
Now I m blaming myself for being poor T__T
They are just toooooooooo Attractive ><
They re just ToooooOOOO Cute!
Well, before that i never know that they are branded since they looks so cute and young, totally different with those Guess or LV bags (which kinda Suitable for "Older" woman XD)
I ' m thinking to get a imitation ... but I heard some comments that said the imitation of JC is kinda yucky... Well, i think i ve to wait till i get my 1st salary to buy it, i wonder how long i need to wait? haih ...
The low quality imitation already cost more than RM 50, AA quality cost more than RM150, how do u think about the authentic one? LOL!
Tell me how could i resist these piano series bag/pencil case?
Now I m blaming myself for being poor T__T
They are just toooooooooo Attractive ><
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