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Monday, September 28, 2009

random

无法解释这个状况到底是怎样的
想了很久
想了个很恰当的名字
“中毒”
呵呵
wiki:
毒物是对生物造成不适反应的物質的总称。

毒物对生物体造成的影响因种类不同各异,不适反应的类型以及程度也各不相同。另外对于有的生物来说具有毒性而对于别的生物来说无毒的“选择毒性”在自然界中也存在。比如,抗生素对某些微生物具有毒性,但对于其他生物基本无害。此外生物所必需的各种微量化合物,如维生素,矿物质等超过一定量后也会出现毒性。例如钙是骨骼形成所必需的,但是摄取过多钙会损伤肾脏。..

就很random...不明白可以跳过。。。呵呵

然后就
最近身体不大好
尽管生活比以前有乐趣多了
可是就 吃不对时间 睡不对时间
乱乱吃乱乱睡
所以就。。。
闹出病了瓜?
要吐不吐
要死不死这样
就很讨厌咯

可是我都不像这样早死
可是有些事情自己控制不了的对不?
CHOI!!!!

然后最近身边就很多奇奇怪怪的人
对我说了很多奇奇怪怪的话

很烦咯
我还不是很自由派的
可是如果你不是我的谁谁谁
你敢来管我
你就死定了!

谁1:家人
谁2:男朋友
谁3:女性朋友

今晚又要去嗅二手烟了。。。
赚钱很难哦??
刚刚才被某某的烟呛到beh tahan...
不可以considerate一点灭?
我很可怜咯。。。。

Thursday, September 24, 2009

被你愛過我很快樂 - 卓文萱



被你愛過我很快樂
作詞:鄔裕康/卓文萱 作曲:曹格 編曲:Isaac Lim

我們肩靠肩的站著 看著不停流動的河
這陣子麻煩你了 被我的愛拉住了
終於你要走了

還是想叫你親愛的 而自由是你最愛的
回憶不斷倒轉著 時間卻又不停的
彩排我們 轉過身

*被你愛過 我真的很快樂
 被你愛過 我更懂幸福了
 你緊緊抱我 溫柔得我好痛
 突然我才懂 你不是不愛我

記得一定要好好的 不管遇見了什麼人
你在我耳邊說著 聲音卻飛得好遠
我也終於 勇敢了

Repeat *

被你愛過 我真的很快樂
被你愛過 我更懂幸福了
你緊緊抱我 溫柔得我好痛
突然我懂 你沒有我更遼闊

被你愛過 我真的很快樂
只是成長 要經過悲傷的
現在我相信 那最深刻的愛
不一定會陪著我們到老的

Monday, September 21, 2009

I miss you...

I wanna go home...
I miss my family...
I miss them so badly...
Haih...

It's been one month since the last time i went back...
I used to go back to visit them once every 2 weeks...

*sob*

Home
The only place i feel safe and peace
The place i can laugh out loud, cry out loud
The place that surrounded with Love...






I'm feeling so
COMPLICATED
I never satisfied with what i have.
Didn't I?
There's something missing in my life.
Some part of my heart is feeling empty...

Well,
There will be one day,
Somebody
Something
will fill it up for me.
And I hope it's tomorrow.
Although it is not possible.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I'm afraid

I'm afraid
that i might lose all the things that i'm having now
and back to the same
i don't want to be left behind again

But
i'm fated to be a loner.
That's the reason that I don't wish to step forward anymore.
Don't give me hope
so that i won't fall into the valley of sorrow
when i'm left alone
again


I know
I always know it
I will be abandoned one day
When you get back all your old sweet moment
I will back off

Although I hope that miracle occurs
That you will notice my existence
And put trust on me
and believe in me

Friends come and go
I know it
I already forget how to trust and rely on a friend
When i can't forget the way they left me
It's way too hurt
Sorry that I'm fragile
That pain tear me apart

Just leave me alone
Will U?
When u can't promise that
you will be my friend forever
and stay with me when i need you?
Don't walk into my life
when you're going to leave anytime...

Monday, September 14, 2009

*BEWARE* SS Picture flooded!!

It's been such a Long time ago since I posted photos with nice clothes over here...
So today, Im going to flood this thread with lots of photossssssssssssss...
I warn u 1st, most of the photos are belongs to Ms Jiayi SS categories ...
XD

Branded clothes? Can't afford?
Never mind...
We pick, and try, and shoot, and Go.
Free! LOL
Clothes from Topshop, Miss Selfridge, Dorothy Perkins etc...


Do I looks like a present? A not so cute one ><

This dress is tooo Sweet! And it can match my cute little Pink bag =D


Pinky Polka dot Dress!


The cutting is so nice :)


Looks a bit old LOL


Polka dot! A little short for me :P


Cute puffy skirt! I love the way how the skirt "float" hahaha



Typical Punk Style Me


ahhh.. layer skirt *love*

Nice dress in CHIKAKO, not branded but still can't afford :(


Random Clothes in Nichii

Padini is expensive ... =.=




1st tube top, specially bought for Ms Alice birthday party at F.O.S


Fav evening dress *LOVE*


to be continue...


My SS partner- Miss Alice

可不可以爱我

可不可以爱我歌词

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定
努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军
为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你
你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
快乐还是寂寞

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你
你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看 我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞
想念燃烧个不停
我快置身灰烬
你是我的呼吸
你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞


我要啦免费统计 VIP 用户

我要快乐

张惠妹 我要快乐 歌词

我要快乐

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓 当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着 味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了 伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声 听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
我的决定是对的


我真得想要快乐

泪水已经流干了

我想要回到认识你之前

那个

为自己所拥有的一切而知足的那个我

而不是

那个

想要拥有你

却不要了全世界的我

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Stop the lies

I'm lost
What's the next step should i take?
Why am i repeating the same mistake again and again?

Why?
Why do people lie?
Why do people act?
Why do people hide all their true feelings inside and put on an act to lie to me?

Stop lying, stop hiding, and stop acting in front of me.
Discover your true color.
Express your true feeling.

I'm tired of exploring, guessing, and searching...
I don't want to play hide and seek anymore.
I m a human being after all.
I'm not God.
I can't see through u.
I can't read you.

So, Please be honest with me.
No more lie.
Like what I'm doing now.
Even a small lie, U can make my trust in you collapse instantly.
Please end
all the acts
all the lies

I'm falling apart.

The competition...

我输了,对我最重要的比赛。
对我来说,意义最重大的比赛。
没关系。至少过程是美好的。
至少练习的过程, 比之前任何一次表演的练习好太多了。
谢谢你们,E.R.H.E.M的团员们。
完成了我的梦。
在舞台上演唱这首歌。
虽然,歌词是临时被逼换掉的。有点不甘心。

比赛输了。
可是我很满意这次的表现。
大家在舞台上很有默契地完完整整的把歌曲呈现出来了。
虽然PA的问题让歌曲不能很完美的呈现出来。
可是我已经感动得想落泪了。呵呵。

一表演完,我就抱着nana开心的跳来跳去。
因为我真的觉得,这次是我们表现得最好的一次。
我有听汤小康老师的意见哦。
尽量表现的自然。

他,没有来。
我没有问,为什么。
因为,心里好气好气。
努力把打滚在眼眶里的泪水吞回去。
他没有来,我还是得比。
因为,那是我的比赛。
虽然,我希望他能听到。

输了比赛,这是预料的。
我的歌曲一向来都是市场不太能接受的冷门曲风。
所以,我也没抱多大希望。

终于告一段落了。
有点想念。
也许因为之前太多时间一个人呆在房间里。
所以当有人陪我说说话聊聊天一起疯疯癫癫的时候
我真的很快乐。

Thanks for everything...
Thanks for those who help me to present this song.
Thanks for those who listen to this song.
Thanks for the one who inspire me to write this song,
Thanks ...

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

I just passby the Hell Gate

here goes the story:

I was having my Nasi Lemak at 4 something in my office when I wasn't that hungry. Well, I bought it at Old town around 11am and brought it back to office. It was supposed to be my lunch. But i don't really had the appetite to eat it at all.

And the food, obviously is not that fresh already. It was keeping in a closed container for 5 hours. The rice and the egg, had turn sour. Aiks, who care. I don't want to waste the food. I might just spend a few more hours in the toilet later. I thought.

6pm. Everybody went home. Left me alone at office.
Well never mind. I can continue playing with my computer.
But suddenly my heart's beating hard. I thought it's normal.
I used to experience that when I get emo or stress.
That's why I didn't really bother about it.

But the feeling is getting stronger ...
It's like something stucked into my chest and make me hardly breath...
I sense something wrong.
The heart is beating so fast like it's going to stop anytime.
I'm out of breath.
I quickly pack my stuff and dash out from my office. Because there's NO ONE in the office!

I was heading towards FIT buidling. I tried my best to reach there asap as I told Laoda that I will meet him in his office earlier.
The time I arrived, Laoda hasn't reached yet. I was sitting alone in front of the office. Strengthless.
Breath in and breath out.
Try to relax myself.

I felt so helpless...
I was alone.
Nobody can help me.
Nobody has come across my mind...
Even there's someone, I doubt he will come to me ...

I called for my last solution, My Mum.
I'm too weak to say anything.
My body is shivering.
And my heart's still thumping fast.
The 1st word that came out from my mouth:
"Mum, I'm scared"

Finally I burst into tears.
I'm so scared that I think I will die.
Mummy asked me to pray to Jesus,
Jesus will save me.
And eventually, I felt better.

I hang up the phone.
And Laoda and Kenny arrived.
I'm So embarrased to let them see my swollen eyes.
Ish.
And I still need to go to the toilet a while to calm myself down.
The heartbeat tempo id still fast. And my hand's still shivering.
My voice is still shaking.
It took me half hour for my condition to back to normal.

Well.
The whole process scared me enough.
I thought I'm going to die. LOL!
and I'm not sure whether is the basi Nasi Lemak cause this incident.
Is the Nasi Lemak that geng?
LOL... i got phobia dy...
Should I go for a medical check up?
Save it lar.
If really got problem nothing that i can do oso.
LOL.
Scary ... T_T